Why am i being like this??

Oct. 18th 2007, Thu @ 6:38 pm 704 words in post

Another week had passed, another class with him again had passed, but still every single day makes me feel unwanted (ang drama? hehe) I decided to end my story about him (kilala nyo na kung cno as usual) and this post would serve as my farewell post.

Ayoko na kasi, feeling ko kasi he wants me to hate him, di ko alam kung bakit, i’m a very sensitive person nararamdaman ko kung meron kang gustong ipahiwatig sakin or kung galit ka ba. Ganito kasi yun, may discussion kami sa PSYCH. about Sexuality and Gender, tapos merong ishinare yung prof namin about sa isang experiment na ginawa nung mga doctors or researchers dati to determine the difference ng reaction ng teenage boys and teenage girls about sex. what they did was nag hire sila ng mga tao na lalapit kunyari dun sa mga high school and college students tapos sasabihin nila kunyari ~~“hi, you look pretty/cool, do you want us to go out,get to know each other or you could also drop by to my apartment or we could just have sex”~~ tapos yun basta the result is mas malaki ang percentage ng mga boys na pumayag na sumama and makipag sex compare sa girls (well hello naman diba kung ako yung girl baka tinakbuhan ko na yung lumapit sakin na yun eh dba? parang approach ng rapist hehe) ayun tapos syempre nag tanong yung prof namin kung ano reaction namin tapos sumagot sya (c crush) and his answer really strikes me BiG TIME! sabi nya kasi “I think for me that’s kinda weird, well i mean for example a girl just approached me and tell me that she likes me that’s weird” OUCH! eh hello parang ganun yung ginawa ko?! actually indi lang parang! ganun na nga! the only difference is i never asked him if we could go out and get to know each other, i just told him that i like him!. so anu ibig sabihin nya dun? na weird yung ginawa ko?? weird ako??! di ko lam kung ano dapat kong maramdaman nung mga time na yun as in feeling ko galit ako na naiiyak, parang ansakit kasi, di ako makangiti kahit nag jojoke na yung mga ka klase ko and di ako makatingin sakanya .

Ayoko na talaga, tagal tagal ko na sinasabing ayoko na pero this time I GIVE UP! he was just making me feel miserable. dun nalang ako sa Korean na lagi kong nakakasabay sa pag pasok hehehe JOKE! nako bahala na sya sa buhay nya naiinis lang kasi ako minsan kahit sabihin kong wala na ako pakialam once na nakita ko sya may kausap na iba i get so affected, pero normal na siguro yun hehe mawawala din yun pag tumagal.

Last but not the least, I wanted to be hugged huhu pag malungkot kasi ako gusto ko yung niyayakap ako, sabi nga diba nakakabawas ng lungkot pag niyakap ka?? eh dati kasi sa pinas yung mga kaibigan ko niyayakap ako, dito wala na yumayakap sakin huhuhu, i’m an affectionate person kasi by all means gusto kong pinapakita yung concern and love ko di lang through words, tingin ko naman ganun karamihan sa mga pilipino dba?? magaling mang comfort hehe.

Well it all ends here Sayonara 25 yrs. old crush! hehehe

ize
October 19, 2007 at 12:45 am

aw. pa HUG nga sis…
hmm.. be thankful sis sa gingawa nea., atleast di ka na nya pinapaasa or what.. siguro hanggang dun lng tlg.. marami pang iba.. oki?? pahug uli
pam
October 19, 2007 at 2:50 am

wehehehe. tama yan. get over him. hahaha. dami pa naman dyan diba. besides, you’re still young. :D

i’ll hug you . XD mwah!
dhadha
October 19, 2007 at 2:59 am

hi sis! salamat sa gretings! mwah!

btw, halika ka dito sis, ill hug you tyt.. hmmmmmmm. sana okei kna sis.. ayos lng yan sis.. hello, ang dami dyang cute at gwapo! ano ba.. hahaha! :-)
niCa
October 19, 2007 at 4:30 am

ung mga girls d yan masyado nakikipag lokohan. unlike boys. haha. d lng naman sya ung lalaki sa mundo. haha. anyway pede b ako magapply sa affies?
gabe
October 19, 2007 at 4:34 am

i think hindi naman talaga siya nagpaparinig. pero kung man, i think he was just trying to send you a message so hindi ka na aasa. which is better naman than telling you when you get your hopes so up. right? maybe he cares for you in a way.. you don’t know.

HUGS and kisses,
`gabe. :]
eigea
October 19, 2007 at 2:31 pm

lam mo sa 22o lang medjo sad na medjo natatwa ako..heheh kasi una nag paapek2 ka kaagd sa cnbi nya bout sa weird thing n yun.. kung kw man yung tinu2koy nya ibig sabihin np2ncn ka din pla nya khit pra sknya wierd yun d b? heloooww sa dmi pede iexample bt ayun pa d b?

ntatwa nmn ako dun sa gnwang test ng prof mo.. syempwe kung sa lalaki nmn kasi may mag aya sknila lumbs na babae wla clang pkilam.. sus 1 lang nmn gus2 ng guy pag pumyg sila sumama sa girll at wla mwawala sknila d 2ld ng guy..heheh

peo gulat ako huh?yung crush mo 25 na pla..la lng.. kla ko kz mga kcng age mo lang.. lam mo sis try mo kya wag sya pncn pncnin mly mo mamiss ka d b?hehehhe yngt lge miss u..mwaahh God bless
ighen
October 19, 2007 at 7:38 pm

hi sis..ainko.. dont waste your tym on him ur beautiful mka2hanap kp ng iba jan!

anyway..sis pki palitan ung links co i have my new domain n cotton-candy.net tnx! mwuahh
Aisha
October 19, 2007 at 7:43 pm

*hugs* hehe.. alamo kung ako sayo.. i will stand in my own feet and defend myself than be hurt and all that.. isipin mo mali siya.. anu weird dun? kung gs2 ka ng isang tao gs2 ka nya.. e ano ngaun sau? wala naman un hinihingi na kapalit, gs2 ka lng niya.. u getting what i mean sis? hay nko.. 25 na pla sia.. yet he still suck at these things hahaha hayaan mo na.. marami pa naman bwhahahha.

nga pla, ito na ba lgi mo use? ehehe
link ko dn ito sis ah.. link mo dn me :) ha? thx!
freyah
October 20, 2007 at 6:23 am

*HUGS* ayan ate.. wahhhheeh.. hug kitah.. para ull feel better.. hmmm.. :)

i hope ull get over him.. madami pa nmn jan diba? wahheheehe..

tc po kau palagi mwah!!!!!
Herschelle
October 20, 2007 at 6:38 am

ouch naman yan.. :( *Hug tightly* okay lang yan. May mas ok pang lalaki kaysa sa kanya :P go for the korean! haha jokes :P
Ikay
October 20, 2007 at 6:47 am

hug na lang po kita.. sana you’ll feel better.

kakaiba rin ung guy na un. pakipot pa. don’t loose hope bibigay rin un. sa ganda mong iyan.
Jazz
October 20, 2007 at 2:45 pm

*gives you a hug* I’m sorry that you feel so down about him
ken
October 20, 2007 at 9:27 pm

sana u feel better soon

tc

>>ken
joan
October 20, 2007 at 10:31 pm

awww naku he just lost a great girl like you sis hayaan mo mauuntog din yan :P hoping u’ll feel better soon! tc always! mwuah!
pinkyish
October 22, 2007 at 11:19 am

OMG! bastos yan lalaking yan ha! i guess..that only means na hindi siya deserving na maging friend mo or even maging bf mo! leche siya! para talagang nagpaparanig pa siya ha!! :P
Krisha
October 24, 2007 at 1:31 am

That’s harsh! Ayoko na sa kanya! (Wow! Parang gusto ko siya? haha! :P) Suportahan taka sa pag-give up mo. Kaya mo yan sis! :)
Gayle
October 24, 2007 at 3:10 am

Completely forget that dude na Len sayang lang ang oras mo maybe this time kailangan mo munang maging numb kapal naman nung guy na yan. Mapanghusga naman siya and ako din gusto ko niyayakap ako may it be a girl or a guy. *hugs*
lhadymitch
October 24, 2007 at 8:55 pm

naku sis ok lang yan forget about him haha bata ka pa naman marami ka pang makikilala marami jan sa tabi tabi haha. kaya smile na.
michelle
October 25, 2007 at 3:57 am

aww, okay lang yan sis. Cheer up! He’s not the only guy in the world you know! Dami pang iba diyan! Maybe he’s not meant for you talaga. Ouchness naman nung sinabi niyang weird ung gagawa ng ginawa mo. Sama!
Lemme hug you sis! :) *HUGHUG*
ayiene
October 25, 2007 at 9:55 am

anu ba un? bat ganun?
naku. ok lang yan. ur way hot for him.
smile na lang.
love you sis.